3 a.m.

WTF so I woke up this morning at 3 a.m. and for the life of me could not go back to sleep. I tried to but I tossed and turned, then watched a little t.v.. But nothing....So I got on facebook looked online for a bit and then got ready for work. I was here earlier than most of the other guys. Each one kept saying "Your here early!" Yeah I know thanks for the late breaking news....I guess I'm not much of a morning person. Yesterday I called and talked with my mom. I'm starting to get a little annoyed with her. I know that this may come off as me being very shallow and selfish but oh well. So I am the oldest out of 5 kids, I am also the ONLY one that doesn't have any kids of their own. And this is where my problem lies....My good hearted mother is constantly watching kids, taking kids to practice, picking them up from stuff, getting kids from school. And her nights are filled with watching kids too. So that last couple of times that I have asked my mom to either do something with me or go somewhere with me she has said "Oh I cant I have the kids." Uhmmm I'm sorry I thought that you had raised your kids already. I find fault in not just my siblings but also in my mother for thinking that its her duty to watch kids ALL THE TIME!!!!!! So yesterday when I called and asked her to go with me to a dress shop and she said the old standby about kid watching I started to get angry. I mean really is it too much to ask for her to go with me? Or to tell one of my sisters or my brother "Hey find a f-ing babysitter like I did with you kids." I don't think so but maybe I am wrong. I have been told many times by different people that I just don't or wont get it till have kids (which I never plan on doing) but when did having kids all of the sudden entitle you to free child care and being down right rude............Maybe I am still just tired but this whole thing is making me mad!