The search continues.....

OK I know that 10-10-10 is pretty far away but I'm starting to get a little worried what if I can't find a place that will fit in my budget! OR that will open on a Sunday in Mormon ville....I spoke with Lindsey today on the phone she said I should ask people. "What is more important church or my wedding?" lol I wish I could say that. This is a bit stress full and annoying should I just go to Vegas and get married and then come back and have a nice reception some where?? Or should I have the nice wedding, with the dress, and the flowers, and friends and family?? I'm going to have to think about this long and hard. I see the pros and cons to getting married at the JP or having a nice wedding. So I guess I will have to try and out weigh them and I guess I could see what Chris wants to do too...It is his wedding too..hahah

Reception Halls

So I went to a reception hall today it was pretty but not as functional as I would like!! It didn't flow like I was thinking. But the price is pretty good so I guess we will see. Another problem that I ran into was that a lot of venues will not open on Sunday. 10-10-10 lands on a Sunday. So now I have to try to find something that will keep in my budget and is open on a Sunday. I guess I don't have to get married on THAT day. But I would really like to....so the search continues. Also Chris and I have stopped fighting so that is good. Sometimes its so hard to get him to see that he is being lame..I know that I can be that way too sometimes but this time he was being lame. Hopefully we can get through this wedding planning without killing each other..... Or me just killing him.

Sunday

Chris and I have been fighting still. I know that I can be stubborn but sometimes I hit my limit on the pouting and him acting like a two year old so I had a really nice day of visiting with friends and family. I went to breakfast with Josh and Derek and Derek's family. It was really nice to see Josh he is so funny. I love that he is some head honcho in NY for the rail road. But is still a big nerd at heart and can be crass and gross with us. Derek is always good for a laugh and I always have a good time with him. After breakfast we went over to Derek's house for a quick visit. Then I went to Marie's house. I spoke with her on Christmas and she seemed a little down, I wanted to make sure that she was OK. Her boyfriend is out of town with his sick mother. I so I went to her house after and sat and talked with her. After that I went to moms house and had some dinner and hung out with the family. When I got home later the bed was made the kitchen picked up and Chris was down stairs. I know right now that I am being really really stubborn but sometimes the way that men act I get to a point when I am DONE Done DONE!! So today was a much needed day of me just doing what I want and not seeing the side glare for being somewhere for too long. Or the long sigh because he doesn't want to do something. So this worked out for the best....I'm sure that people think "Why are you getting married to someone that you argue with so much." And not all of its bad. I think that I can be naive about the way that things should be between two people. That if you love each other everything will fall into place but NO that's not true. SO to make things easier I just take a day here and there so that I'm not on the news for punching him in the head!!

The day after

How can you love someone sometimes and then want to bash their head in at the same time...I love Chris to death but sometimes his pouting get SO annoying. To watch a grown man pout over the lamest of things is so dumb. We fought last night over a movie. I didn't feel like watching "The Hangover" He wanted to watch it I didn't cause we had rented all of these movies from Blockbuster and still had some to watch. LAME I know. So he slept down stairs and I slept upstairs. Oh well I'm sure that today will be better. I just get tired of his pouting. This is yet another reason that I am glad I don't have kids. I doubt that I could handle having a husband and a child pouting at the same time. Tonight is our family Christmas party for the moms side. I think it should be fun. I always like hanging out with family they are funny and make me laugh. And after fighting last night a good laugh is really in store.....

Christmas Eve

Ok I first have to vent...I know that there are more important things out there than this but still....So I have been DONE and I mean done shopping for a couple of days now. I did get some Christmas candy for Chris's and Pilar's sock but other than that DONE!! So today Chris and i went to the movies and saw Avatar it was a really good show I do suggest seeing it. I give it two thumbs up!! But any way so my mother calls and says OK for the Deamer Christmas party can pick what you want to bring and then starts reading a HUGE list of items that need to be brought to the party.....As she is reading I'm starting to get annoyed one because I have NO desire to go to the grocery store. And TWO because my Aunt has wasted so much time deciding on what she wants to do, that here it is Christmas eve and we should be going home and enjoying the evening. But NO we are going to the grocery store with all of the other people that put things off to the last minute and shopping...GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OK now that that is out of the way. Chris and I went to the store got stuff for us to have a nice dinner for tomorrow and then came home and opened gifts....I got some clothes a gift card for a nice massage, a TON of candy, even some candy that I don't like I'm thinking he got it for me for him if you know what I mean. Lets see I got a camcorder, pj's, a shredder, and a blender. It was nice I knew about most of the gifts that I got I didn't know about the massage oh and he did get me the cd Boys like girls. It has the same song that was playing when to purposed to me..."Two is better than one." I thought that was so sweet of him...He got clothes, a watch, a computer, a printer, candy, and some other stuff.... I love that for the rest of my life I will be having Christmas Eve with him....I feel a little sad about the not having kids on nights like this...When my nieces and nephews still believe in Santa and get all excited about it...Just not sad enough to want one for my self. Maybe in the future you can rent kids out for holidays like this and then give them back so that you don't have all the really hard stuff along with having a kid....jk. I hope that everyone has a very merry Christmas!

Done Shopping?

So I thought that I was DONE shopping OK well I did forget candy for Chris's and Pilar's stocking. But hey through a candy cane or two in and your good right? Wrong my sister decides that today of all days that she is going to break up with her boyfriend. It has been rocky and my parents don't really like him. I think he is a nice guy and he seems to like my sister. I just don't think he makes very great choices especially for being a father. But then again no one is beyond making mistakes. But with her breaking up with him meant that I now had to take back his gift and we now had my brother in law that we needed to buy for. GREAT!!! 2 days before Christmas and now Chris and I have to go out and fight the madness. We found I think a pretty good gift that I think they will use quite a bit so that is good. I did get to go and get my massage and it was HEAVEN. My shoulders have been hurting so bad that I could barley stand it. So the massage was very needed. I feel a lot better and it was nice to also get the scrub so that my skin doesn't feel like crocodile skin any more. I love it when I can get a pamper day in. After I my massage Chris and I went to my uncle Craig's house. They had a technical problem that they needed my super smart fiance for...I'm gonna have to get used to saying fiance I keep calling him my boyfriend and my aunt corrected me tonight. It was glad that we were able to help them out my uncle Craig has always been right there if I needed something so I was glad to be able to help pay him back for something at least. Today was a really good day, I hope that Christmas is even better.

The Dress...

How do you pick out a dress if your not sure what you are looking for?? And then when you do find one you may like they don't have it anymore??? Geeze this is gonna be hard....Not the hardest thing in the world I have had to do but still hard! I have looked at a few dress and the one above is the one that I really really want wanted (all in white with the black belt) BUT I called the store and of coarse the have to call the designer and find out if they still make it (and in plus size.) I have a feeling I will have to look for a different dress. Oh well, I will have to do what I have to do. I'm looking at places that will do most of the work for me. I know that sounds really lazy and selfish. But I HATE having to think that I need to find all of this stuff and get it all organized. I don't think I could do it. I know I'm complaining and there are people out there that have kids, school, work, and family stuff. But this is me and I really want to find a place that will do most of the work for me! That would be the best I think.

Out of all the guys that work here only 2 noticed the ring on my hand, not bad out of 8 men. OMG the funniest thing happened today at work. One of our customers came in in the give Jeff (one of the 8) a gift for the holidays. He walked into he back and asked Nate & Adam (my bosses) where Jeff was. Both of them pointed to the bathroom door and said "I think he is in the bathroom." For some unknown reason the guy opened the bathroom door..........And there sat Chris Ooka (one of the other 8) doing his business on the pot. I guess that the guy got a little embarrassed. Nate asked him why he opened the door. He said "I guess I didn't hear what you said." But I laughed SO hard and I think that will teach Chris to LOCK the door from now on too funny!

But about this dress problem anyone out there with some advise on what to look for when your looking but don't know what you want???

The BFF CLUB

So today was suppose to be a day of relaxing and hanging out, wrapping gifts, and watching TV. It ended up being a fun and sad day. First my good friends and sister came out for our annual Christmas exchange. Chris made us breakfast and then left to go to watch football (yes its Sunday) at my sister house. It was fun sitting there talking with the girls we talked about wedding stuff and gossiped about other people. Talked about where we wanted to get married at. My friend Desi who has been dating her boyfriend for over 5 years well they finally went and put money down on a ring. I am thinking that it would be a good year to get married in 10-10-10 but who knows...We may have to wait...I haven't even looked at places to get married at. I guess I better get started. After it was time for the girls to leave i ended up going with them so I could pick Chris up and that's when I came to my sisters house and all of the bbf club was here. I love these girls soo much and I love how much they idolize me! I know that sounds bad but these girls really do. When I walk through the door they all run up to me and give me huge hugs and scream AUNT SARA!!! It makes one feel good. So while my sister was on the computer i sat with the girls and talked about my wedding. Maddy is age 11 (going on 18) then there is Roo she is 8 and Brooke she is 8 and Pey she is 5. Each one of them wanted to be my flower girls so we started talking about who was going to do what...Maddy was going to do the book, Pey switched back and forth to being at the book and doing presents. I told her that someone had to clean the bathrooms she didn't like that too much. Brook wanted to hold my dress as I walked down the isle and Roo wanted to be in charge of my jewelry...They wanted so badly to help out...Roo was taking it so seriously that she kept telling her mom that she would need to be there early so she could help me...Cristy got all irritated and said "Its not like its tomorrow so quite worrying about it." These girls are great sometimes annoying but still they make me laugh so hard. Later my sister and I ran to a viewing. I really hate going to those no one ever knows what to say and it feels really awkward. It was for a family friends mother who had passed from cancer. After the viewing we came home and ate. Oh and Pey combed my hair and kept asking when was the last time I showered and that I needed to take a shower and get all of the knots out of my hair...WOW thanks!

Well today was a pretty good day. Chris and I got up went to Chilies and ate lunch then went to Wal-mart (and here is where I rant) I hate that store people are so rude. No one knows how to say excuse me, people run you down with their cart, and my all time favorite people think they are the only ones at the store. They stand in the middle of the isle looking at what they want to buy with out a care in the world that there are 59 people standing behind them waiting to get past. OK that's out I'm done with that. Then after we came home and just hung out. Well Chris went down stairs and I played on the computer. Then we went to our Hansen Family Christmas party. It was fun well not as fun as I remember it being when we were younger Christmas is NEVER as fun as it was when you were a little kid. But it is still nice to see all of my Uncles and their wives and my cousins and all of their kids. I think I am the only cousin that is either not married or doesn't have any kids. Well that is of age of either being married or having kids. I know that some people think that its odd that I don't want kids but after being to family parties like this and seeing my cousins that are around the same age as me with all of their kids, it just does not appeal to me in the least. I love being able to wake up at 1:00 pm (like I did today) Or leaving and not having to make sure that I have not only my purse but a huge diaper bag. My sister seems to think that I will be missing out on not having kids but I don't feel the same way. Plus she seems to think that just because she has had kids means they will take care of her when she gets old, which isn't always the case. But I do love visiting with my nieces and nephews just not wanting to have one of my own that I cant take back at some point in time! But as a bonus to the party we all got my grandmas candy she makes which is heavenly.

BETROTHED!!!

So it has finally happened to me Chris purposed tonight and it was soo sweet. I came home and he had made dinner. Steak, potatoes, carrots, with a mushroom gravy (I love mushrooms he hates them.) He already had my food sitting there ready for me to eat and he went over to the radio and changed the song to a song that I said could be our song. Its the new Taylor swift and boys like girls song "Two is better than one" He came over and gave me a kiss and said "I love you." I told him I love him too....He kept on fidgeting with his pocket. So I looked down at it and then he kissed me again. And he looked at me again and got on one knee and in a shaky voice said "I want to spend the rest of my life with you....Will you marry me." Oh so sweet!! Chris had NEVER cried in front of me ever. I cry all the time. It was so sweet to see him get emotional over something finally. I said yes and then gave him a hug and a kiss and he put the ring on my finger.....Now this next part is where I KNOW he is the one for me. He looked at me after putting the ring on my finger and said. "I have prepared a speech." I thought oh wow he really put some thought into this good for him. So I said "Oh OK!" I sat there waiting to see what other sweet words he was going to say to me.......He said...."You probably don't know this about me but I'm kind of a lone wolf in a one wolf pack...and then I met you and thought Could it be? Another wolf for my wolf pack? I started laughing so hard. It was the same speech from the movie "The Hangover." We love that movie and that part was hilarious. I said "Honey you know I'm probably the only girl that would appreciate you making a joke at the same time you proposed right?" He laughed...I'm soo excited to start a life with him...When we first started dating I wasn't quite sure that he was the one for me. And then when we moved in together (yes we are living in sin) I thought HOLY CRAP!!! Is this really what its like to live with a man?? It has been one of the hardest but most rewarding years of my life. He has taught me a lot about what it means to love someone unconditional. When I'm ranting and being a freak show and he is still here a year later. The little things that he does for me to show me he cares and they really are little things...Like the mushrooms I love them he hates them. But he will always get them for me. And the way I like my popcorn at the movies and how I like my diet coke. How he brings me milk at night cause he knows I like a glass of milk before bed. He still opens my doors for me when we go somewhere, he knows all of it and does it. He is a really great man and I don't think that I always give him the credit he deserves. And I am honored that he choose me to be his partner for the rest of this life..... The picture above is of my ring and I love it!

12-18-09

I'm so excited for the next few days off. Not so much for Christmas as for the days off. 2 whole weeks of only a 3 day work week will be heaven:) I came home the other night and Chris was so excited to show me that he had wrapped my Christmas gifts himself. I just found out that last year he bribed my sister into doing it. So I looked at them and WOW is all I can say. I guess that he couldn't find the regular tape so he taped it with movers tape...you know the tape that has the strings in it...So here on the nice Christmas wrap is yellow tape. But at least he did it right? He means well and I think it will be funny to see them under the tree and when people come over..since we don't have kids and that's what it looks like is a kid wrapped it.

I went to my mothers house yesterday to see my sister Shay she had knee surgery and I helped her take a bath and wash her hair. I know how that feels to want to take a bath so badly but need the help of someone else to do it. NOT FUN! After she was out of the tub I looked at my moms Christmas cards. Ever since I was little she has taped them to the back of the front door for the month of December. I saw my Christmas card and what was next to it but the EXACT same card only a different picture...I was a little miffed. I like to think that when I do something I will be the only one with that super cute card. But no here was my card sitting next to my sisters friends card with a floating head on it...Well actually it was Graydon's dads family Christmas card. And they had put Graydon in a black shirt and then sat him in between Jim (Greys dad) legs so it looked like Graydons head was floating in the pic. Which was funny but then how do you know who has the better card? Is it the floating head pic? Or the super cute of Chris and I above?? I think that the reason it bugs me so much is being the oldest of 4 girls nothing is ever really yours you share it. I don't like to share!! I know that sounds snotty of me but I don't. I remember 2 years ago we had a Christmas party for my mothers side of the family. Well I show up and mingle until the rest of my family gets there....Oh and here comes Cristy (the 3rd sister) in the SAME sweater as me. We looked like the freaking double mint twins. I just kept telling her that she was the fatter twin.

I cut my hair today cut it OFF!! it was down to the middle of my back. But my hair is soo thin it looked like string. Im so jealouse of woman that have a nice full head of hair. I have my dads hair super ooober thin. And as he gets older so does his hair. I just keep thinking OMG I dont want my hair to look like that when Im 55. Maybe I can find some kind of vitamin that will help. I need to start looking before all that is left on my head looks like fine kitty fur!

Diary entery # 1 12-17-09

I have decided to make my own online blog because of someones that I started reading...I don't know the woman but she has been on my mind for quite awhile and I have read through her blog. She kept it for about a year and it was nice to read and see what she was thinking a year ago. I thought to myself I wouldn't mind having my own online diary so that is what this is is my own diary...I am horrible at writing things down on paper and the last time that I read something I had put in a diary....One it was hard to read because I have the penmanship of a 2nd grader. And two I was such a depressing person. My life was horrible (not true) no one liked me (I have lots of friends some that I still see from high school) I was ugly and fat (OK the fat part is true I still need to loose like 500 lbs but I don't think I'm ugly any more). So I think I will start with a little more grown up diary. I'm sure I will rant about my family and how Chris (my other half) irritates the living hell out of me some days. But I love him still and I know he loves me. We met 2 years ago online of all places. When we first met for our very first date I remember him getting out of his crappy car (I'm not good with cars so I don't remember what kind of a car it was) He was standing there in tan slacks a nice button up shirt and he had a big bouquet of flowers in his hand....But the thing I noticed the most was his hair was parted down the middle I was like wtf! But when we went inside to have dinner he made me laugh and I laughed hard. Not very many people get my sense of humor. I like to tease and being the oldest of 5 kids I think its in our blood to tease. He doesn't like it as much when I tease him but oh well its habit by now. We bought a home in Ogden last year and on the 10th of this month it has been a year since we bought it. I love my house its an older home and its in Ogden (my mom says its in the ghetto) But I love it....its the perfect house for us. I don't really love all of our neighbors it took some time getting used to people that are different than us and having our neighbors think that just saying hello and being friendly meant.....Hey can I borrow money? That was a big shock but things are a little more normal now and I think I like it in the winter I found that during the summer the crazies come out! Christmas is right around the corner and for once I am DONE shopping all I have to do is wrap now...That will be fun and I can get that done tonight I'm hoping. I think this is a pretty good blog for my first time doing it. I will have to try and do this once a day. I hope I don't become a Debbie downer on this like I did in my J.R. High diary...That one was a little ridiculous.